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| Finally, I found time to write in here. I know it's been awhile. I've been so busy with school, work, fixing the house, and doing my duties at home that I hardly have time to write in here. I do have time before class on Tuesdays and Thursdays but that's usually when I go to the library and take an hour nap before class. I get to school early because L an hour earlier than I do. Since the last time I wrote, I got a new job in a medical facility. I'm not doing any medical/clinical duties but at least I can write that I have worked in a medical facility as well as doing in-home bedside care. I'm actually supposed to be catching up on some English homework, but my instructor has not replied to whether or not I should do the assignments that are considerably late now. I just did the one that's due today. In short, I recently caught some kind of congestive illness from a co-worker that coughs around the department with their mouth open. During that time, L went through a bi-polar session. Shortly after that, I pulled my hamstring--the same hamstring I pulled years ago. Oh well, hopefully, things will get better as the semester ends. Anyway, that's all for now. No, I haven't played WoW lately. Too busy for it. I even got kicked out of an end-game guild because I choose real life before game life. If only they knew that I was once them and now I'm rekindling my life because of that time sacrafice just for a game. The only game that needs that much dedication to is the game of life! | | |
| I was going to talk to my mom about what's on my mind. I usually tell Leighton about it, but I know it'll just stir an argument and he'll feel pressured or stressed. Well, ironically it's been a week since Leighton said he's not happy with the relationship and is doubting my strength and patience, I got sick. It doesn't seem like a cold and feels more like an allergy, but I'm not allergic to anything. I guess my immune system lowered because of the stress that came up last week. I hate that. People are trying to do things that are supposedly to help me be happy, but don't they realize that what they do doesn't make me happy. It's like you're outside, enjoying the weather and someone comes around and says, I think this spot is better, so you go for it and what happens, it sucks for your end. I was fine with the way things were going but people just HAVE to TRY to make it better. URGH!
HAVE ONCE F'N COMPLAINED THAT MY GRADUATION HAS BEEN DELAYED? NO!
HAVE I EVER SAID THAT I REGRET WHAT I'VE DONE IN THE PAST? NO!
Why can't people be supportive with the choices I've made? I have accepted all the consequences and learned a lot from all the experiences. Why can't people just be happy that I even still wish to continue my education? Shoot, I am, why can't they? Why do people get mad at me for not having a fighting spirit but it comes to them, it's okay? How do people expect me to go out and "have fun" but frickin' study hard so I can get good grades as well work? Why can't people understand that going out isn't exactly my forte anymore. I've grown out of it. I have other things that I'd rather spend my money on or spend that time doing something more productive in the long run. How about me just wanting to SLEEP!? Is that a crime? Why do people constantly pressure me to f'n have fun? I have a mind set already... FINISH SCHOOL! See what happens when you grow up with siblings that are 8 and 10 years older than you; you mature faster than average. You know I've had a streak of good grades and accomplished things since October 2005. That makes me happy. Taking one step and at time and succeeding each step after I made the final decision stop taking care of his mom and to take that energy for nursing. Why can't people see that as a positive step? Why do they keep dwelling that I'm delayed? It's frickin' okay! Sheesh!
The way to get my life better is to frickin' finish school!
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| Yeah, I know it's been awhile since I've last written. I have been very busy lately and pretty content since. I've passed all my courses in the Spring and in the Summer. A new semester has started and once things are going so well, Leighton tells me that is unhappy being in a relationship. He feels that he has helped me at all when I was taking care of his mom. This does not bother me because I cannot dwell in the past, I stay positive for the future. Negative outlooks doesn't get anyone anywhere. I keep going with my life despite all the things that have happened because I have faith. I don't mean to be religious but I thank God every day for giving me the strength and the patience necessary to continue with my road to nursing. I believe that I was given the opportunity to train for nursing to ensure that I like it before pursuing it. I now have 4 years of training under my belt, now I need to finish the schooling part. I'm tired of being patient for everyone else and no one wants to be patient with me. I know that I didn't make bad choices, but I know I took risky choices. However, every time I took a risk, I had faith and prayed to God to give me the strength to encounter my choices. If God did not give me the strength to do what I've chosen to do in life, then I know it wasn't the right choice.
I'm sorry if I sound much more religious, but I am becoming more in touch with God. I have yet to attend mass, but I know that spending time praying to God makes up for it. Yes, I have been doing my own thing, reading, talking to friends and family, and going to school. I am truthfully tired of his yo-yoing relationship thoughts. I am not complaining that my diploma is supposedly delayed. At least I found what I want to do and kept going. Why can't anyone see that? Stop dwelling on age! I might be nearing my 30's but I feel younger and that's all that matters!
Yes, I am angry and disappointed, but my dad and Leighton don't care about that. All they care about is my F'n degree! Leave my degree alone. Have faith in me and it'll come sooner than expected!
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| We are moving to our new apartment on June 20th. We are hoping to get the keys from the landlord tomorrow, but that's only if the contractors feel it's ready. We all know they're going to give it to us on Monday. GRR!
About 60% of the stuff are ready, but we still have to go through the kitchen to sort out what we want to keep. We also have to pack up our DVD collection and such. It's almost ready. I'm still waiting for the Ikea card to arrive.
Did I mention that Leighton is sick AGAIN?! It sucks! We both didn't sleep well last night because he was coughing pretty much throughout the 3hrs of sleep. We were so busy packing that time flew by so fast. We have class at 7:45 am Monday - Thursday.
Anyway, I should do some of my math homework before I leave for work.
I have to turn in homework that's due on Tuesday on Monday because I
won't be going to school that day for the movers and service installers.
Today's my oldest sister's birthday. I got her an iTunes gift certificate and a funny egreeting. =)
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| I know I haven't really wrote any entries. I've been filled with things to do since Spring semester ended. Leighton and I are moving within our apartment complex. So it'll be a new beginning for both of us to have a place of our own (in a way--long story). I've been sorting through old stuff and thinking for ideas for our new furniture and layout. Our budget is frustrating me, but I realize that everything will come to us little by little.
Summer school starts this coming Monday. On June 20th, the movers will help us move our large furniture. We want to start moving sooner than that with the help with friends and maybe neighbors because I found out that a few other neighbors are moving on the same day and we really don't want our stuff to get mixed up with others. What's also frustrating is we have to supply our own boxes! 
We've been so busy that we haven't signed onto WoW in about 3 weeks. That's pretty scary for me since I was playing WoW during the Spring semester and passed my classes with at least a B and got a lot of things done in the game at the same time.
Well, that wraps it up for now. I'm going to get a little more sleep before I start shredding again.
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